Stupid People everywhere

I swear today was like a war on infetiles day at work.

Let me take you through my day...First I woke up this morning in a blur. I took Nyquil before I went to bed, and was in such a fog when I woke up I was bumping into things, and about fell over when I was trying to get dressed. I was just going through the motions, really not knowing what I was doing or where I was even, but somehow I managed to get dressed and only make it to work ten minutes late...then I went to put my lunch in the fridge, only to discover...I forgot my lunch in my Nyquil coma...crap.

Then I go over to my computer and open up my in-work email. Sitting in my inbox is a survey from the district....They say it was a survey on childcare...I say it is a conspiracy to rub in my face how much this week sucks (just kidding). Here is what it said...

1. How many children reside in your home?

2. How many children ages 0-3 reside in your home?

3. How many children ages 3+ reside in your home?

4. If the district provided a day care facility would you utilize it?

5. If the district provided a preschool facility would you utilize it?

6. Would you prefer half day or full day preschool?

So as if getting through this week on the anniversary of one of the worst days of my life isn't bad enough, I have to actually admit on paper that here I am a year later, and still have 0 children in my life, regardless of ages, and a day care/preschool facility would be Not Applicable due to no children. Awesome.

Now, the next part is kind of my fault. I brought up politics, namely the Georgia bill, with some colleagues. I like to educate those not infertile on some of the things infertiles go through and also to enlighten them as to why I act like a raging lunatic (kidding...sort of). Well, lets just say we didn't see eye to eye, and I'm sure my face gave away my feelings when one person said they thought those adopting embryos should have to face the same regulations as those who adopted children. Yeah, my blood pressure is raising again, so let's just leave it at that. I'm sure you can figure out where my feelings lie.

I'm just frustrated right now. Every single website/journal I try and do research on the bill, where it is in sub-committee, etc., everyone is still misusing implant for transfer, and while it doesn't seem like that big of a deal, I think it is, because it is a very misleading term, and one that could potentially get a bill passed due to misrepresentation, and ignorance. Are these people voting on this bill getting proper education as to what IVF actually is? That there isn't that much difference between IVF and natural pregnancy except IVF is fertilized outside the body instead of inside? Do they know that the embryos are placed back in the uterus not implanted and imbeded (a scientific impossibility?) I just wonder how much knowledge these people making decisions about my uterus actually have, yet everyone else not IF can breed and screw as much as possible and nobody is going to judge them or limit how many children they can have, or inhibit their chances of a family. Grrr...it all makes me so mad. I just want to carry around a stupid sign, kind of like the Bill Engvall skit, "Here's your sign." and put it on people who make insensitive, stupid, a$$hat comments.

In other news, Jeff and I are trying to decide whether to start our next IUI this next cycle or wait one more. Jeff thinks we should wait until April. I am getting antsy and want to get started, but the next OV date would be during state assessments. My question is if we do the U/S and they want me to do the shot earlier, then we could do it and miss state assessments completely...but if my body doesn't cooperate, or the eggs aren't there, etc. then it would fall smack dab in the middle of testing. I have always put my job before everything else, and to be honest, I am kind of tired of putting my life on hold for other things. I'm ready to get this show (back) on the road, and I'm tired of waiting. Am I being selfish if I say screw work, and do the IUI regardless, or should I be a good employee/teacher, and just hold out another month? Let me know what you think.

Happy Hump Day tomorrow!